NOLEEN'S 42nd ANNIVERSARY:
I cannot believe that we are fast approaching Noleen's 42nd Anniversary on 4/4/2015. I set this blog up in January 2013, in the run up to Noleen's 40th Anniversary, little did I know I would be changing the blog title as each year passes. So soon the link to the blog will be www.noleenbetrayed42years.blogspot.com
Already the daffodils are out and spring is in the year as we creep through February and my sister Theresa's 10th Anniversary, on the 23rd February she would have been 43 had she lived, I am not sure yet if I will mark her anniversary on my Facebook page (DalkeySindyMurphy) as I have so much to cope with right now.
Simon has had his operation to remove his prostrate and we are just waiting on the biopsy to see if he is now cancer free, he is not home a week yet, from the hospital, depending on how things go, I may just spend Theresa's anniversary quietly with my daughter in law, and go somewhere beautiful and scenic to think of her.
I am waiting on so much news from Ireland too, which I have asked my solicitor to put on hold while I help Simon recover from his operation, so lets see how things go.
This year for Noleens anniversary we are going to visit our Niece, so can spend it with family, instead of my usual pilgrimage to Ireland to keep Noleens name in the media I am going to spend it at home with my 9 year old niece whom I love to bits and her parents. It will be nice to be around children and to laugh and feel free from shackles of guilt that usually torment me every year and send me to Ireland to do press conferences or memorial masses to keep her name alive.
However it will still be a sad and painful time, and to make it worse I will be visiting a town where Theresa and I lived together for four years, and where I first found the courage to tell someone in Authority about Noleen, that will bring its own challenges, but I will face them and use the time to quietly spend time with people who love me and care about me.
My heart is already aching as I prepare mentally now to wake up on 4/4/2015 the 42nd anniversary of my beautiful little baby who was born and murdered on that day, already the pain has begun. The daffodils always mark the start of this time for me, as they were in bloom all around me when Noleen died and are always a constant reminder for me, I always fill the house with them at this time of year.
As soon as I see them in the shops I enter into a mourning period that starts earlier and earlier each year as we get milder winters.
And so the long painful journey to 4/4/2015 begins.....................................
